Since I started writing welovegoodsex.com and ‘doing porn’, a lot of things have changed for me. First, it was Why are you focusing on sex? Are you personally frustrated? Then it became the funny conversation we’d have at work. But for me, it really changed my life.
I started exploring porn and sexual practices I never would have dreamed of experiencing myself, and began to make my fantasies into films.
People were surprised when I made more films after Alice Inside, as they probably thought it was simply a little creative tantrum, but I stuck with it.
At parties, bars… People love to talk about that stuff. First, they look at me thinking She doesn’t look like she’s in porn. Then, hearing the word feminist, they ask So, it’s just lesbians, right?
This is exactly why it’s important to make better porn, because we can’t keep reducing sex work as the desperate, “last resort”, dangerous and degrading part of society. I thought I would get more crappy emails from horny guys, but I have to say the people who write to me are usually very supportive. I also get emails from acquaintances who suddenly have an interest in knowing me, or from guys who “love sex” – shocker, who claim to be very good at it and want to be porn actors.
Oblique
December 6, 2019 3:41 am
So you do porn to fill an empty hole inside you with attention and a sense of accomplishment because of that attention. Got it.
Lucie Blush
December 26, 2019 11:56 am
Actually, I hated being ‘the porn girl’. I didn’t do it for the attention, I’m just fucked up enough to use my body as some kind of artistic tool, hoping to help people and couples find excitement again. To be honest today, I cannot think of a good reason to do porn. I loved shooting it and editing it, but the price is high when you turn your life around it. It did help me rip off the band aid and throw away my teenage insecurities, but it also threw me across the bridge to adulthood in quite a violent way, especially since most people in the porn world are vapid and deluded. I had to get away from it. Since then I got married and learned even more about womanhood and who I am in general. I don’t regret it though, if you keep your priorities clear you can learn from it instead of letting it devour you.